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as most of you know, i’m a MAJOR blog stalker. seriously, i read 100′s of blogs a week. ranging from photography blogs..to family personal blogs..to blogs of special kids..to mommy blogs..to DIY blogs..to completely random-no-category blogs. i was reading a blog tonight, about a random girl talking about honesty with blogging. it got me thinking.
she writes below-
“For some reason, the bloggers that get really big, that always get the most enthusiastic comments, that have a whole swarm of readers, are the ones that seem perfect. They’re the ones that seem to have an absolutely perfect life, skipping from one fun activity to the next, with nothing that ever seems to drag them down.
But recently, I’ve noticed that I’m not really reading those blogs anymore. Sure, I’ll scan through their fun day out pictures, but that’s really it. I spend more time reading and responding to blogs that are truthful about their struggles, truthful that they might not have everything together. I feel much closer to bloggers that don’t seem to have this perfect, unshakable facade.”
this is what i wanted my “my holland” blog to be described as..HONEST. between lila’s hospital stays, genetic oops, seizures, to loosing our house, to my miscarriage and etc..i want my blog to tell the truth. to help my readers know me from the inside..not so much the outside (ie. a photographer, a wife, a mother.), but deep down on the inside. my feelings. the bad times. the sad times. the not so good times. remember, you have to take the bad with the good sometimes? i felt in my previous photography blog, it was all good. all awesome. but really my life isn’t always good and awesome. and i’m glad. through every circumstance, i’ve become stronger. gained wisdom and truth. got closer to my family. appreciate the small things. to not judge. i hope my struggles and learning outcomes do the same for my readers, in some way. in their own way. it’s amazing how one person’s life can change another’s life!
here’s some truth about me. (i got the idea from another fellow blogger)
i AM that mom that dislikes being away from my children, even if it’s only for an hour.
i AM that wife that really stinks at cleaning, organizing, dusting.
i AM that girl who is horrible at balancing a check book or even aware of what checks i’ve written and passed out to others.
i AM that student who procrastinates their homework until HOURS before class.
actually i procrastinate everything.
i AM that girl who is late for appointments or actually forgets the appointment all together.
i AM that girl that washes and dry’s the laundry, but leaves heaps of clean/unfolded laundry in a pile for about a week before folding.
i AM that wife who stands by her husband through EVERYTHING, no matter what, i support him.
i AM that annoying mother who brags about everything her child accomplishes.
i AM that girl that forgives over and over and over again.
i AM that girl that has too much on her plate and has no clue how to balance her time to do it all.
i AM that mom who will NEVER in a billion years abandoned her children or just give up on them. no matter what.
i AM that girl who adores GOD, but can’t seem to make it church on sunday’s (this is changing this sunday!).
i AM that girl that doesn’t like to say “i love you” unless i REALLY mean it.
i AM that step mother who supports her husband and step daughters relationship and tries in every ounce of her well being to make sure they are together. forever.
i AM that girl who get’s horrible road rage. in my head.
i AM that girl who USED to depend on herself for everything.
i AM that photographer who USED to put her job before her family.
i AM that mom who cried today because my child was gagging and choking on their food..in front of the speech therapist. seriously embarrassing.
i am NOT that person that does everything right.